Just some words

So I started chemo yesterday, and DAMN I'm tired. Last time treatments didn't wear me out at all, but this time, well it's already clearly different. The nausea wasn't nearly as bad and, well, that is GOOD. BUT as I said, I am very tired, which means that for the most part I might have to spend my days laying in bed, watching movies and TV, working on Holt's Home, and relaxing. This is gonna be hard, but I think I might be able to handle it.

Seriously though, I do hope to be able to get out and enjoy the summer weather a bit. Float trips, swimming pools, cookouts, and bonfires are an essential summer ingredient. But I cannot stay in the sun too long, I can't drink alcohol, and I'm very tired. Looks like I'm gonna have to figure a way around this, maybe late night swims, LOTS of sunscreen and not drinking is honestly NOT a problem, I don't like drinking anyway.

So, so far things are off to a good start, I'm surrounded by good friends, great family, good doctors, amazing nurses and did I mention AMAZING FRIENDS? So this next year won't be ALL bad. I've had tons of friends offering to take me out places with them. At home I've got PLENTY of entertainment, and more to come. It may not be fun, but it doesn't have to be horrible. That's my way of looking at it at least. Next week I begin taking my second pill, daily, and get my first IV dose. Both next Tuesday, so I'm looking forward to seeing how that turns out. I know it can't be worse than what I've already been through and if somehow it turns out to be, then I'll just get stronger and overcome another obstacle.

This is my life, and I plan on LIVING it happily for a LONG time. This is just another toll on the LONG road. But I'm going to pay it, leave a tip, and keep on swimming, because it's the right thing to do and it's really the only choice. Unless I want to give up, which I think we ALL know is NEVER gonna happen. So I'll keep praying, keep smiling, keep laughing and keep LOVING EVERYONE. Cause that's just who I am and what I do.